Grumble

Mar. 6th, 2008 01:20 pm
hestiaschild: (Boo!)
I hate this job. I have a freakin' sprained knee, and I am on my feet for a good portion of the day. The people around here help as much as they want...which is only what is convenient for them. If there is something unpleasant about the duty, like staying on their feet for three hours...well...guess who gets to do it, hmm?

Only I get to technically stand on ONE foot for three hours. My hips hurt, my knee hurts, my ankle hurts...I'm stressed, I'm grumpy, I'm tired of everything. I work, I go home. I eat something, get in bed. Take pain meds, if I'm not napping, I'm out of my skull. 

Hubby doesn't like to be around much, but when he is, he's supportive.

I want a new life, but not a new husband. If I have to have a job...why can't it be one that I enjoy?!

Bah. 
hestiaschild: (Default)
 So...I have a sprained knee. Don't ask me how I did it...I don't know. However, I can tell you that my knee pops, grinds, and generally feels weak as hell unless I'm wearing this beautiful brace I have...it goes from thigh to calf, with all sorts of attachments, steel, and velcro. I have three weeks of physical therapy to complete. I have to use a cane. 

So apparently the universe thinks I need to take it easy. I wish it would have chosen a better time to do that. It's tax season. I'm at the office until ungodly hours, and I have to be on my feet. A lot. Criminey. 

So, yes, because of tax season, and this little transition that I am going through...I haven't had a lot of time for other things, or other people. It's all I can do just to spend time with the hubby. With his two jobs, and him going to school...we hardly get any time together. I haven't spoken with people for quite some time now...and I don't even remember the last time I checked my email at home.

Sooner or later I will get out of this, and I can resume my life. I'll just be a changed person. 

K...do you have text messaging on your phone? If so, is it free? If not, can you get free texting? That would be so grand. I can't talk to you, but I can text you. My boss won't flip so much about that...

That goes for everybody else as well...

Loves!
hestiaschild: (Fire)
Yesterday, that is.

I got home, and my husband kindly drove the car to the street and parked it, so that I could hobble up the steps and chill out for a bit. (Oh yeah, I injured my knee again...isn't that grand?)  So anyway, I call my mother just to see how things are going, and maybe talk to my little brother, and then I hear that I have to be in South Carolina this weekend for a funeral. My cousin's wife delivered a stillborn. I call my dad to see if he can pick me up from the airport, and he tells me that his father in law is in the hospital, and it looks bad.

Well, hell.

My flight leaves for South Carolina on Saturday morning. I come back on Monday.

Wish me luck, y'all.
hestiaschild: (Default)
I took this last August, and things have changed a bit...



Your Five Factor Personality Profile



Extroversion:



You have medium extroversion.

You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.

Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.

But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."



Conscientiousness:



You have low conscientiousness.

Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.

Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.

Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.



Agreeableness:



You have medium agreeableness.

You're generally a friendly and trusting person.

But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.

You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.



Neuroticism:



You have high neuroticism.

It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.

You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.

You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.



Openness to experience:



Your openness to new experiences is high.

In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.

You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.

A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

hestiaschild: (Marriage)
Friday night was nice, just chilled out with the hubby and sister in law.  Saturday was doing laundry, and running errands like grocery shopping, and such.  Saturday night, a friend of the hubby's came over, and I made dinner, we watched the Spongebob Movie, (he had the Snacks! Woohoo!) and he loves eating my cooking. Poor thing, he was in the situation I was in when I lived in a basement in Woodbridge. No kitchen, even though it's accessible, you just feel like an intruder, so you buy things that can go in a little fridge and microwave, and eat that. He hadn't had a homecooked meal in awhile. When the weather gets warmer, hubby is going to start firing up the grill (yeah, I'm a BBQ widow, standing in the kitchen making the side dishes to the charred meat) and he's invited to enjoy. 

Sunday was cool, I went with the SIL to Ulta, and got my eyebrows waxed while she had a little makeover. I bought her a little thing of eyeshadow, and then we went to Michael's so that I could finish up the Moon Swap that I am doing. After that we went home, and I hung out with the hubby until we had dinner with the family. We had to go to Applebee's and then to Wal-Mart so everyone could buy new bedding and such. We got a mattress pad for our Tempur-pedic bed. I LOVE that bed. I'm never sleeping on anything else. 

Husband had to work on Monday, but not at both jobs, thank goodness.  Poor thing works a lot! He has the two part time jobs, which sometimes overlap into a 11 hour day, and he goes to school full time! Whew! I'm glad that he had the discipline to do that...I don't know if I could.

Monday I made breakfast, and cleaned the house. I considered going into work, but thought against it. I had the day off, and since it's tax season, those will be few and far between.  After breakfast, hubby went to go get a haircut, and took a shower...then we went to the jewelry store so that we can buy another wedding ring. He keeps losing his. He takes it off to wash his hands, and keeps forgetting to put in back on when he puts it in his pocket. Somewhere along the line it falls out, and he doesn't have one. Because this makes me so upset, hubby decided that we would go out, and get another ring, and have it engraved. It's nice. He wore it yesterday, and it made me so happy. 

After I finally finished cleaning the house, I took a shower, washed my hair, and gave myself a pedicure and manicure. My nails look fabulous! I was watching A&E most of the time, and read a little. Hubby came in from work and played his guitar for awhile, and then he came to bed, while we watched a little TV and cuddled. 

I guess I fell asleep on his shoulder, because he turned the TV off, kissed me good night, and got me settled in the blankets. I woke up early this morning, and was in to work an hour before I needed to be. This is good. I've got a jump start on my work, and that's grand! I can probably leave earlier than usual today! Yay!

So, that's the story of my boring little life. I'm glad that things are finally getting settled again. I've been taking some new herbal supplements that are helping with my sleeping issues, and I've been sleeping very very well. 

Yay for me! One day, I'll actually get my life settled enough to catch up with all my friends who I've been putting off. I dont' mean to y'all...I just have to catch up and then some...I'm getting there, I promise. 

Loves!
hestiaschild: (Hestia)
Happy Birthday [profile] badboybunny!!!

Hope you have a wonderful day, and many happy returns!

Loves! 
hestiaschild: (Ocean Moon)
I don't know what it is...but I get so tired lately...

I sleep okay...maybe not as well as I think...

I dunno. I wake up before my alarm clock goes off, and I'm pretty refreshed. 

As soon as I hit the office...my batteries die.

Anybody got a clue?

Thanks 

Tax Advice

Feb. 13th, 2008 03:50 pm
hestiaschild: (Typical)
Please y'all...do your accountants a little favor. If you have several receipts, don't make us tally them up. It just takes a lot of time, and that makes your bill go up. We don't want to hear any griping about you having to pay us for something that you could have EASILY done yourself for free. 

Trust me, if I have to spend 30 minutes totalling your receipts, that's 30 minutes I could be looking for extra deductions.  If my time is getting to be too much, I know that you are going to bitch about your bill, and I won't go hunting for the more obscure deductions that are still applicable under tax law. 

Please. Please. Please. Try to make it easy on yourself, and your wallet. Help us out here.

Thanks. 
hestiaschild: (Default)
 Not a whole lot going on, other than working, doing laundry, trying not to get myself killed on the slick sidewalks, and taking care of the husband.

So, yeah.

The highlight of my week is going out to dinner tonight, if everyone can make it.
 

Woo to the hoo, y'all...LOL
hestiaschild: (Jeebus)
 Oh dear...who knew when I came home on Friday night, that one meeting for dinner would turn my weekend upside down?  Not in a bad way, mind you, I made two new wonderful friends...but man, my life needed some shaking up, and boy did it...

Friday, I meet N (life coach and wonderful friend) for dinner, and she has her sister and sister's partner with her. C & E, (as I will call them), were living with the sisters' mother, and things were not going so well. After a discussion of which several abuses and atrocities were named, I said that I knew of a place that they could live, and could do it cheaply. (I was thinking of the basement apartment in which I lived while I was waiting for the house in Oakton to be available.) I promised to take them after dinner to ask if one of the rooms were still available. There was. They didn't get the room that I was in, but the other one. It's perfect for them, and hopefully, it will suffice until they can get on their feet. 

Anyway, it was getting pretty late, and I said that the ladies could stay over at my place, and we would go pack their stuff and move them tomorrow. They lived an hour and a half away, and E had a job in Reston. The gas they were paying for made up for the rent for the room, and they were closer to N and I, in case they needed anything. These are definitely good things.

I get them settled in for the night, (by the way the Bolivian and I are having arguments most of the week) and we decided that I would drive them to go get their stuff. We take my car, because it's bigger, and we make the trek to the backwoods. C is having anxiety attacks because she is afraid that her mother and her other sister will come home and be assholes. When a grown woman is having panic attacks, that ain't cool. I tell her not to worry, I'll be there, and things will be okay. If something should happen, I'm right there, and I won't allow any harm to happen to them.

So. The winding roads that they took me down freaked me out a little bit. I'm from flatlands. I'm not comfortable driving down hilly windy roads, and E had to do that drive twice a day. 

She is SO glad she's moving.

Anyway, we get everything packed up, I get lunch for everyone, and we begin the ride back. We get them moved in to the apt, and I gather everyone to my house and make dinner. A vegetarian dinner, and everyone is cool with it. Wow...

After that, hubby and I had to have a little talk, one of those that should have waited, but really couldn't, ya know? After a looong talk/fight, I feel better, but I've been rude. People were waiting on me to get them home, and take them to their car, etc. I felt really bad, but it really couldn't be helped. Marriage was hanging by a thread...had to talk it out.

Resentment sucks. It eats away at you, until there is nothing left. However, things are better now. Yay!

Yesterday was "spend time with the spouse" day. It was great. He is at school now, and I am at work, and I should really be getting to it, but I needed to post about this. Saturday was the day that I felt better about myself, because I'm important in a lot of people's lives, and I am truly appreciated and needed. 

Tonight I am going to drop off a little cart for the ladies, and hope that they are settling in well. They have kitties, and it made me realize that I need a pet. Dog, cat, anything...but I need a pet. I need a baby to take care of, whether it be from my loins, or a furry four footed child...I need something to cuddle and love when hubby isn't in the mood to do so.

He's allergic to cats, which sucks, because I prefer cats. I have to find a breed that is conducive to people with allergies, and that is hard to do, because I really don't like the Sphinx breed. I wish there were a hairy cat that was allergy friendly...or at least not so bad that a Claritin or Benedryl would be an effective preemptive strike.

Anyone have any ideas?
hestiaschild: (Runes)

I feel change coming...it was in the winds last night.  I'm not feeling satisfied with my life the way it is. 

I think it is because I am finally satisfied with my marriage...so now it is on to the next thing.  I know it's in the stars, the New Moon was in Aquarius last night, and there is a lot going on this month as far as the Celestial Realm in concerned. 

I don't know where the winds of change have brought me, so I am still reeling, and trying to find my bearings. This is making me grumpy and irritable, especially where the family is concerned. More specifically, the FIL. It may be that my job is definitely picking up speed again, and I am under a bit more stress and pressure. I'm not sure, but I need alone time to figure this out, and not have to listen to him walk around upstairs like a damned elephant.  I'm tired of having to worry about what the rest of the house is doing. I went out with the sister in law last night, and she practiced driving. I know it's not her that I have a problem with. The MIL usually leaves me alone for the most part, and we only speak when we run into each other. The hubby was out most of the night last night, helping his mother with the shopping, and he went to the gym.  He came home, and I was watching Jarhead, (I caught it towards the middle, and I only got to watch a little bit of it. The parts I did watch seemed interesting, and I definitely feel for the soldiers who are over in the desert. Even with Hollywood's glamour, that looks like it sucks...) So, it's the FIL...something about his presence, his energy, his aura....it's scraping on my nerves. I don't know...

So...I'm here at work, and I have a lot to do, so I have to get back to it. I feel better, having posted a little bit...but I still feel restless...anxious...nervous...something is coming. 

I hope I can see it before it gets here...

No Time!!

Feb. 6th, 2008 01:05 pm
hestiaschild: (Typical)
 Got the swap stuff, talked to a friend, even though I had to go, and I told her I would call her back, but I never got the chance. I hate the fact that my life takes up so much of my time. So hectic ,so hurried.

I called her because she was the friend who I haven't talked to for the longest time. I have a running list. If I haven't called you yet, it's because I have so many other people to check in with.

If this sounds pompous, I really hope you can understand that it is not my intention. I just got an ear blistering from my stepmother and father day before yesterday because I don't call very often, and I very rarely have time to call on birthdays...so even my own FAMILY is complaining about how I have fallen off the face of the Earth.

I can't help it. I guess I could, but then I would be so tired I couldn't function. I would much rather take a small bite and chew it well instead of taking a big bite and choking.

I know that doesn't make sense, but hey. I'm doing what I can.

It's just that I want to be everywhere and doing what I can for everybody...and I used to be able to.

Now I'm married, and I'm living with the Bolivians and the other white meat. Living with family takes up a LOT of time...and sometimes...all I want is to be able to just take some time for myself and relax. Just to go within, and do a little self-check, take notice of what's changed, what's still the same...

I don't know. I just don't want people to think that I'm ignoring them, or mad at them, or just don't want to be with them.

I do. I really really do. I just need more time. Or money, so that I can quit my job and dedicate my life to being there for my loved ones. That would be good.

I want to start my own business so that I can take more control of my day. That would be fantastic...

I was thinking about it last night. I just don't know how to get started really. I know the plan, I know how you're supposed to do it...I just don't know how I'm going to get the capital to get it started.

Maybe with the declining economy, the gov't will be willing to help me out. I have to look into it. 

It will have to happen after tax season, though.

Here's to a crazy, hare-brained scheme!!
hestiaschild: (Boo!)
 Egads...it's after 3 o'clock and I'm nowhere NEAR finished!

I wanted to go get the stuff I needed to finish putting together a swap package that I need to get out!

GAH!!!!!!!!!

Oh yeah...

Feb. 4th, 2008 10:43 am
hestiaschild: (Fire)

Finished another Anne Bishop novel yesterday.

I'm 2 books away from finishing all of her various series, until Belladonna comes out in paperback.

Then I'm at a loss of who to read next.  I hear she has another book coming out in her Dark Jewels series...but who knows when that stuff will come out in paperback...

I do not buy hardcover stuff unless it's on a really good sale...or I'm at the used book store.

That's a thought. Used book store, I know there is one in Fairfax, I just have to remember to go to it. It's just so easy to go to Borders, and they have the Rewards Card...

They like to give me free money for spending lots of my own.

Eh.

hestiaschild: (Marriage)
 Oh yeah baby!

Saturday was great! I woke up early, made a good breakfast for the hubby, took him to work, went to the bank and deposited some money, bought water, went to Ulta and picked up some more stuff to make me all purtyful, went to DSW and bought some orthopedic dress shoes for work (tax season is here, and I'm going to be on my feet A LOT) and some nice Liz Claiborne shoes to wear with jeans. Oooh...they are so pretty. After that, I went home and started laundry, and tidied up a bit. 

After I went and got the hubby, he was working on his painting, and we were figuring out what we wanted to do that evening. (By the way, he got a phone call from a gallery in London...they want him to be a part of an exhibit. We checked it out, and they are totally legit. He is expecting a phone call from the owner to get details as to when and how he should send over his artwork!) We had made plans that we were going to have our "date night" We finally ended up going to Olive Garden, after I got all gussied up. He was very sweet, and very charming. We had a drink at the bar while we were waiting for our table, and then had a lovely dinner.  Then we came home and topped off the evening with some mattress dancing...LOL

Sunday was quiet. Made pancakes, had breakfast with the SIL and the hubby, tidied the bedroom a little, finished the laundry, and got dressed and went to Ulta again, then Borders, and did my grocery shopping. I came home, made the bed, chilled out for awhile since the SIL was cleaning our bathroom, (She needed money, so I said that I would pay her $50 to clean the bathroom and clean my car again) and then we went to the car wash, and then the bank. She practiced driving for a little bit, and then we came home. I was trying to make some dinner (Lasagna Rolls with Pesto) but then the other half of the Bolivians walked in with pizza, and we had dinner while watching the Superbowl. My SIL and I were doing our nails during the game, and then I cleaned the kitchen, and went downstairs to take my shower and go to bed.

I woke up this morning, took hubby to school, and here I am at work. I've got a few things to do, but nothing major. Hopefully, it'll stay that way, so I can get off early, and go home. 

Life is treating me really good at the moment. I'm loving this weather, it was a gorgeous weekend, and I'm so happy to be alive....

Bah

Feb. 1st, 2008 01:35 pm
hestiaschild: (Marriage)
Last night, was...well...volitile. 

We worked it out, and I'm still a little upset over something, but it's not so big of a deal that I can't get over it myself.

I'm proud of myself for not losing it...I'm proud of myself for not escalating the fight when I really wanted to. 

I'm just...grumpy. Again.

Can I scream now? 

Finally

Jan. 30th, 2008 01:11 pm
hestiaschild: (Ocean Moon)
 I think I am getting used to these meds. I'm starting to come out of my funk, and get more into my life again. I'm not quite there yet, but I am definitely moving in that direction.

My future FIL probably thinks I'm mad at him, he doesn't say much to me anymore. It's just that I'm not in a talking mood when I have a bad day, and I need time to unwind when I first get home. Nothing personal, just grumpy, and trying to save him from being collateral damage. Hubby and his family know better by now, and they just leave me alone. Gotta get newbie up to speed.

So, last night, I was a little grumpy. There is a little side effect to antidepressants that is starting to tick me off. It's a little personal, but on top of a not so good day at work, it was enough to put my temper on simmer. So, I stayed downstairs, even when I was invited to join the family for dinner. Again, nothing personal. I had the ringer on my phone turned off, I was just trying to chill out in my PJ's, and hubby was apparently trying to call me for half an hour so that I could go pick him up. I was not told of this earlier, so I didn't know. Else I wouldn't have changed into my PJs. So, SIL tells me, and I go get him. In my PJs. He was grumpy, until I told him that I was never informed that I would have to pick him up, he managed to get to work fine on his own...what the hell. I'm just trying to chill. I'm grumpy as hell, leave me alone.  He finally noticed under the streetlights my attire, and apologized. He asked me to drive the car up to the door, and he would park the car on the street so I wouldn't get cold. I tried to decline, and he insisted. 

He didn't have to tell me a third time. 

So, I went inside, had a little dinner with him, and he wanted to take a nap. I'm getting a little irritated, because I asked for some of his attention and affections, and he said after he finished his homework. Usually his homework lasts until midnight. Oh well, there went that idea. So I took a shower, and got into my PJs again. I climbed into bed, gave myself another manicure (that's the thing about not getting my nails covered with acryllic, the color on natural nails starts to chip after a few days) and watched a little Doctor Who on BBC. First episode of the new season...I didn't finish it. It was interesting, and I would have been happy to see it to its conclusion, but I had to get some sleep. I had a hard time falling asleep, because I was irritated with hubby, and I think I took my Paxil too early. The window for drowsiness closed. So, I finally got to sleep around the time that hubby came to bed around 12:30. I didn't stay asleep though. I woke up around 3:30am, and kept fading in and out of Dreamland until hubby kissed me awake a little after 7am (!) to take him to school. Again, I wasn't told about this, and I was a little miffed. I told him so. It was more along the lines of "So that's why you're being so nice to me, you prick!" (Obviously, I'm not a morning person.)  He made me a cup of tea, picked me up at the door, and drove us to NOVA. I just had to drive to work. I'll admit, I like riding with him in the mornings, but I just hate not knowing that I have to wake up at the crack of dawn. (Yes, at the time I woke up, the sun wasn't up yet. It didn't help my mood.) 

So, I got to work pretty early, and have been having a good day. I have to finish something real quick, and it's a little challenging, but then I only have to finish up a quick client that is just being a pain in the ass because I can't get on their computer, and do some filing, and then I should be done. I can leave early today! Woo hoo! I don't know what I'm doing after work, but if hubby wants to spend time together, I'm going to take advantage of it. If not, then I'll have to find something to get me out of the house. [profile] taraverti said I could go with her and meet her sister at the library. I might do that. I don't know. I probably should call another friend of mine that I haven't seen in ages, and see how things are going. Maybe I can go see my friend K. Or she could come to me. I dunno. We'll see. 

Ugh...here I go back to work...at least I'm not dreading it this time. 

Loves!
hestiaschild: (Default)

I'm done! I'm done! I'm really really done!

Well, almost. With the client from hell. 

Woo to the freakin' hoo! 

Just gotta print some reports, put everything together, and

I'M DONE!!!!

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