I think I am getting used to these meds. I'm starting to come out of my funk, and get more into my life again. I'm not quite there yet, but I am definitely moving in that direction.
My future FIL probably thinks I'm mad at him, he doesn't say much to me anymore. It's just that I'm not in a talking mood when I have a bad day, and I need time to unwind when I first get home. Nothing personal, just grumpy, and trying to save him from being collateral damage. Hubby and his family know better by now, and they just leave me alone. Gotta get newbie up to speed.
So, last night, I was a little grumpy. There is a little side effect to antidepressants that is starting to tick me off. It's a little personal, but on top of a not so good day at work, it was enough to put my temper on simmer. So, I stayed downstairs, even when I was invited to join the family for dinner. Again, nothing personal. I had the ringer on my phone turned off, I was just trying to chill out in my PJ's, and hubby was apparently trying to call me for half an hour so that I could go pick him up. I was not told of this earlier, so I didn't know. Else I wouldn't have changed into my PJs. So, SIL tells me, and I go get him. In my PJs. He was grumpy, until I told him that I was never informed that I would have to pick him up, he managed to get to work fine on his own...what the hell. I'm just trying to chill. I'm grumpy as hell, leave me alone. He finally noticed under the streetlights my attire, and apologized. He asked me to drive the car up to the door, and he would park the car on the street so I wouldn't get cold. I tried to decline, and he insisted.
He didn't have to tell me a third time.
So, I went inside, had a little dinner with him, and he wanted to take a nap. I'm getting a little irritated, because I asked for some of his attention and affections, and he said after he finished his homework. Usually his homework lasts until midnight. Oh well, there went that idea. So I took a shower, and got into my PJs again. I climbed into bed, gave myself another manicure (that's the thing about not getting my nails covered with acryllic, the color on natural nails starts to chip after a few days) and watched a little Doctor Who on BBC. First episode of the new season...I didn't finish it. It was interesting, and I would have been happy to see it to its conclusion, but I had to get some sleep. I had a hard time falling asleep, because I was irritated with hubby, and I think I took my Paxil too early. The window for drowsiness closed. So, I finally got to sleep around the time that hubby came to bed around 12:30. I didn't stay asleep though. I woke up around 3:30am, and kept fading in and out of Dreamland until hubby kissed me awake a little after 7am (!) to take him to school. Again, I wasn't told about this, and I was a little miffed. I told him so. It was more along the lines of "So that's why you're being so nice to me, you prick!" (Obviously, I'm not a morning person.) He made me a cup of tea, picked me up at the door, and drove us to NOVA. I just had to drive to work. I'll admit, I like riding with him in the mornings, but I just hate not knowing that I have to wake up at the crack of dawn. (Yes, at the time I woke up, the sun wasn't up yet. It didn't help my mood.)
So, I got to work pretty early, and have been having a good day. I have to finish something real quick, and it's a little challenging, but then I only have to finish up a quick client that is just being a pain in the ass because I can't get on their computer, and do some filing, and then I should be done. I can leave early today! Woo hoo! I don't know what I'm doing after work, but if hubby wants to spend time together, I'm going to take advantage of it. If not, then I'll have to find something to get me out of the house. taraverti
said I could go with her and meet her sister at the library. I might do that. I don't know. I probably should call another friend of mine that I haven't seen in ages, and see how things are going. Maybe I can go see my friend K. Or she could come to me. I dunno. We'll see.
Ugh...here I go back to work...at least I'm not dreading it this time.