Oy vey

Apr. 18th, 2008 01:17 pm
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So. Tree Sex is killing my sinuses. I am so glad that I have a doctor's appt today. I can talk to him about this. Everything seems to send my head swimming. Getting up, moving around, whatever. It's killing me.

Please please please please let there be some good drugs around that can help this issue. This is annoying as hell. I've tried the homeopathic remedies, but they aren't touching it, so it's better living through chemistry for me...

Other than that, things are going pretty well. Hubby gave me a little massage last night, and it felt great...

I made dinner for my friend, N, and talked to her for awhile. It was the first time I put a gluten free meal on the table...definitely interesting, but it was fun...did a reading for her, and I think my pewter runes like her. My rune cards have this little habit of bitch slapping people...I don't think they mean to, but they're just...blunt. 

I tried communing with my little Goddess altar while my friend was visiting, and that didn't work, and I got the message pretty quickly...but after a little Snack, I lit another candle, and this time made some good progress. I think that I am a creature of habit, and if I don't tidy the bedroom, put on some relaxing music, and just chill out a bit before communing, the Goddesses are like..."Uh-uh. Get yourself in the right headspace and come back later..." It worked, and while I was meditating on the Goddesses, a heartwish I didn't realize that I had was acknowledged. 

It was WAY cool.

Hubby took a break from working on his songs on his myspace profile, and we had a little SandySnack, then I took a shower and went to bed. 

I woke up this morning at about 5am and saw that my little tealight that I put in front of the Venus of Willendorf was still lit, so I got up and snuffed it. I accidentally fell asleep without putting it out. It's okay, I have it in a fire proof container, but it's still not a responsible thing to do. I really don't think the Goddess would allow that to happen, but you never know. I'm a big believer in that stupidity needs to be painful, and that might come back on me, ya know?

Oh well. I'm starting to ramble, so it's my cue to get off it and get back to work.

Loves to all! 
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Maybe. I'm getting more restless, and itchy to be more in the world now. I'm still pretty isolatory, but not to the degree that I once was. I need to take what I have learned and apply it to my life, and that means that I have to get out and live it. 

I'm trying. I'm still not ready yet, but I'm almost there.  Tax season has to be over first, I'm thinking. I'm much too tired now. Before, it was just me withdrawing. Coming home, taking a nap, eating something, taking a shower, and going to sleep to just wake up and go to work again...well, 'tis pretty exhausting. 

To all of you who are feeling ignored, please don't. I have had years of trying to be sociable, and putting myself out there when I really needed to just take a break and never did...well, my psyche made me take a break, whether I wanted to or not. When presented with a choice of going completely batshit crazy or taking a hiatus from the outer world...well...guess I'm resting. Otherwise, the men in white coats and butterfly nets will come take me to their "rest home." :)

Soon, all. Soon.

So, in other news. Hubby and I are going to be doing a trust excercise on Sunday. He is going to take me out. He will choose what I wear, what I eat, where we go, how to get there, everything. I'm not going to make suggestions, or correct him in any way. This is for me to trust that he can do stuff without my help, and that he really has been paying attention and knows me better than I think he does. It's also to help him feel respected and appreciated and help me become less of a nag and a better wife. 

Woo hoo for growth!

Let's see how this works out! 



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